Darkest before the Dawn

 I don't feel good today, I feel alone and unwanted. I feel used. I think I've chased off anyone who holds any love for me in a way that I've lost all my supports and am flapping in a violent stormcloud. It doesn't feel good. 

I am in a dark place and at a dark moment in my life. 

I know I will get through this though. Just a few months and my life should open back up again. I have to remain vigilant and keep moving forward. I've come too far to stop now and only come this far. 

I can and will survive this, I've survived worse and battled through tough times before. This one seems bleak in the moment but I will get through. I have to, I have an amazing 10 year old son that is relying on me getting through this. 

I have so much to be grateful for. A roof over my head, enough money to survive, a means of transportation, mostly healthy. 

I can do this. 

Keep moving forward.