Life doesn't pan out the way you planned out.
That was a big "aha" moment when I figured that out. I always try to plan everything perfectly, everyone else has their own motives and they don't give a shit about your planning. I tried to make things as perfect as I could and that just exploded on me over and over again.
Countless hours (days, weeks?) spent worrying about others opinions and clamouring for justice has left me sitting here like a goddamned useless human, wasting away the days until I die.
Thankfully, revelations can exist in our psyches right beside all that negativity and strife that we burden ourselves with.
I had a revelation.
Gone are the times of worrying about others, it is time to only focus on the things I can control. It is time to control myself and my family's affairs (my son) only. Everyone else doesn't matter, what they say or do has no bearing on my existence and the only way to succeed is to optimize my own experience on this earth.
So what does that mean? Start with cutting dead weight, and lose the losers in life. As soon as I am able to, start making money again. Invest wisely in the future. Go to the gym five times a week and have active rest days in between. Eat healthy, don't drink enough alcohol to get intoxicated. Learn another language and learn another instrument. Read and write everyday. Simple as that. The human experience becomes easy to conceptualize optimization and tough to actualize optimization. Make it easy on yourself. Develop habits that change your world from the inside out.
We all start somewhere.
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| This is where I start. |
