Motivation
I don't know what motivation is, or how I'm supposed to get it, or keep it. Some days I feel destined for greatness and some days I am full of self-doubt and wonder how I can even feed my son for another month. I've been put on hold for a year, good. A year of my life hasn't been stolen, this is a gift. I have to look at it as a gift. I can use it to create, to improve and use it as a cocoon towards emerging a fully realized, super powered version of the man I used to be. That is what will happen. Gym everyday, read everyday, write everyday, better man-better person, inside-out. But how do I leave the shitty parts of myself behind while levelling up the good parts? Surely I have good parts, I just need to tap into the right aspects to do this with. Destroy the ego, inflate the creative. The first draft of anything is shit - that's a Hemingway quote I've subscribed to since I was young and actually wrote, but if it's taken me 10+ years to write the fir...